THE CHOICE
The other day I saw a big pile of dirty dishes on the kitchen sink. I was just about to engage on negative Self Talk about how irresponsible my sister is for not washing her dishes, when something within pulled me into taking a pause. At that moment I experienced a great sense of detachment from the situation and a break from playing my very familiar egoic identity. It was very clear as I was resting in the stillness of the inner most reality that I had a CHOICE. I could choose to fall prey to my own negative Self Talk while washing the dishes or I could do the dishes and engage in my daily chores from the most expansive, blissful and joyful state I could be in. I had experienced a radical realization that carried the possibility of relating to the world from the most expansive state I could be in.
Most of us tend to operate on automatic pilot and what that means is that we are going through the motions of life, falling prey to our habitual ways of thinking without consciously knowing that we have a CHOICE. We can choose our thoughts, our feelings and the extend to which we allow outer circumstances and the people around us to affect our inner state. At the beginning this might require a conscious effort to take a pause before we react and to remind ourselves that we have a choice but eventually we begin to easefully settle in that still space, where the old negative patterns of thinking begin to loose their grip on us and we start to experience the world around us from the depth of our being.
When I went to the Thanksgiving Macy’s Parade I was filled with joy and enthusiasm. I was excited to watch this colorful spectacle of giant ballons and listen to the up beat music as the band was approaching. I felt like a kid as I was looking up into the sky with great eagerness and delight. At one point during the parade, someone accidently spilled coffee and it went flying in the air and landed on me, my friend and the people behind me.
I was experiencing such a high level of inner tranquility that It was almost as if I was witnessing a comedy. I was so detach from my familiar egoic identity that even though I was covered with coffee, I started having a laughing attack. It seemed like a very funny scene because I was perceiving the situation from my formless essence. Who was throwing coffee to whom, when there was no one that wasn’t a pure manifestation of consciousness itself. I was experiencing the cosmic joke. I could see that in this moment supreme consciousness out of her own free will was manifesting and creating everything. I could clearly see the play of a vast energy field expressing itself through various forms and unique vibrational dynamics.
Similarly, our minds create thoughts, which we choose how long to sustain and when to dissolve, creating our subjective reality. We tend to experience the situations and events through the eyes of the ego, depending highly on the degree of praise and recognition that we get from others. However, when we can enter the space behind the ego, we experience our true nature. We realize that we can choose to live in the outer most reality or we can live in the inner most reality where we fully participate in the world around us while remaininhg anchored in the vastness of our inner being.